never thought i'd ever say this, but you're just like the rest of them

day four.

"Impossible, maybe, but worth one last try; I'm waiting on your reply. I'm sitting here patiently just for the chance that I might be able to hold you tight. And I want to know what makes your world go round. And I want to hear your voice for the sound. A love that defines all I've had in mind, now I'm holding back nothing for the look in your eyes..." - The Look : Ryan Tedder

i'm sitting here patiently just for the chance that I might be able to hold you tight. and it's getting harder and harder to deal... i'll wait patiently, but i can only be patient for so long =(

a rip in my heart

...but answer this for me: why do i feel like we just broke up?

stripped down to nothing but honest thoughts

Dear C,

You say you've got lots going on right now and that you need to sort things out. I don't know what it is that you are dealing with right now; I just wish that you'd let me be with you through it. But because you've asked me to, I'm trying my best to give you the time and space that you need. But that doesn't mean I'm not hurting inside. I've shed many tears already. I can't concentrate. Nor can I get any work or studying done. Not with this silence.

But the most painful part is waiting for you because all I want is to hear your voice and to see you right now. So many times I've dialed your number, only to end the call before it starts ringing, and so many times I've written you a text message and stopped myself from sending it to you.

Now I ask you: does wanting to hear from my own boyfriend make me a bad person?


Still yours,

- L

Jan says...

"Sometimes it all still feels like a mass of dots. But more and more these days, I feel like we're all connected. And it's beautiful... and funny... and good..."

two thoughts.

ONE. Friday was my last day at Swiss Chalet (until sometime in March or April). It's time to focus on classes and get my GPA up. I also need time for myself and for my relationship. It's just a break, I promise. I'll be back as soon as I know I can handle this heavy course load. But, boy! Am I gonna miss the cashflow!?

TWO. I'm upset and feeling hurt right now. Honestly, it feels like you're caring less and less each day now. This silence only makes me think one thing: "He's losing interest in me". What I really want is for you to prove me wrong and tell me that you're not bored of me yet. I just really hope that I didn't screw anything up because I really do care about you.

goodbye new years resolution

we didn't even last a month. but still i put the blame on him. he broke it long ago... and several times. and then he lied to me about it haha

mmm... fries are soooooo good.

i'm speechless & confused

goodbye, that's all i can say for right now
i'm sorry. i can't find the right words to say right now nor can i find the right feelings to feel. i don't know what to say or feel, mostly because i don't understand. i don't understand how antonette and britt must be feeling right now, and i don't understand what could have been going through his mind just moments before he pulled the trigger.

it feels like a lie, a fib.... why can't it be?

you give me fever...

Michael Buble: January 17, 2008

Yeah, I fell in love with Michael Buble. The concert was truly amazing. And he was INCREDIBLE.

i'm STILL sick

remedy #1: advil cold & sinus
remedy #2: the black extra-strength halls
remedy #3: chicken noodle soup

the best remedy: hugs and kisses from my baby =)

1 hour, 47 minutes

EE skills back in use. And it strengthens my faith. I'm remembering again why even I put my trust in You for the first time 4 years ago. And I remember again that day I first accepted Your free gift of salvation and the true soul revolution that occured in my life because of that choice.

Thank You for Your unfailing love.

2008. A New Beginning.

A new year. A new beginning. Both of which make me extremely happy. 2007 brought some good (and some bad) memories... as every year tends to do. I'm excited to see what 2008 has in store for me and for us. Thank you for ringing in the new year with me